Altschmerz to Shalom

Altschmerz,

a desperate exhaustion

shackling the hope

of my vision.

Insecurity,

Doubt,

Fear . . .

weary isolation

scraping the insides

of my gut.

Depression,

Anxiety,

Addiction. . .

aching frustration

inflaming the intersection

of my bones.

Desperation,

Escapism,

Shame. . .

hidden symptoms

confining the sickness

of my mind.

Judgment,

Failure,

Denigration. . .

protective cynicism

shielding the sensitivity

of my heart.

 

Vulnerability,

Forgiveness,

Sorrow,

God’s saving grace

launching the restoration

of my soul.

Light,

Truth,

Freedom . . .

He has given me

a new mind,

releasing the lies

the enemy contrived.

Silence,

Belief,

Stillness. . .

Yahweh’s Spirit

filling me

with His Hesed,*

and breathing

into my essence

shalom, a restful

wholeness.

*Hebrew transliteration of חסד – means love, mercy, loving-kindness, piety, etc. Often used as a descriptor for God in the old testament.

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